Depression X 2

And I keep sinking lower and lower. I don't see myself getting out of this depression. At all. It seems like I take 1/2 step forward and about 20 steps back. I failed my SPHR exam, for the 5th time. Lisa passed her exam for the 2nd time. And this time, she didn't really even study. How unfair is that? I'm at such an impasse right now. I don't feel qualified to do my job, and I'm not good at anything. So what do I do? Apparently SHRM doesn't feel like I can do HR either since I can't pass an exam. I feel like such a stupid idiot. All I want to do is curl up and cry. I have no desire to talk to anyone or see anyone, especially Lisa. And it doesn't help that we're off on vacation on Sunday. I have no desire to go right now. I have no desire, period. I'm a flat, stupid slob. And now my job will be in jeopardy. I won't get a bonus or an increase, and I'll be out of a job probably sooner rather than later. There are no companies that want me. Basically I'm a loser. How great is that?