Realization

So I had a session with a coach last week, and there were some interesting things that I learned about myself. My heart is saying that I need to leave DHG. I just don't agree with how they are doing a lot of things. For instance, they finally told Terry when his last day was via e-mail from the office manager. He didn't even warrant a personal meeting. This is a partner who was with SLA for 38 years. How unhuman is that?? I am holding in a lot of anger and grief from the whole merger, which I knew, but didn't realize how much. And I'm feeling guilty for wanting to leave. Not for DHG, but for my clients. I feel that they need me, and if I leave, I will be leaving them in the lurch. But that's just what'll happen when I move on, which I know I need to do. And Lisa is driving me crazy. It's all about her. She doesn't want to hear anything about me or what I'm doing. Saturday morning she called me. I had posted on FB that I was at a hotel scrapbooking. She was upset that I might be at a scrapbooking retreat and didn't mention it to her or invite her to come. This is why I don't want her going to all of the retreats that I go do - I need some time away from her with retreats. She can be very high maintenance when scrapbooking, and I don't want that. Then this morning, I e-mailed her asking her to call me this afternoon as I needed to pick her brain. She called me this morning, so I said I would call her back, since Shelly was still here. So I called her about 45-60 minutes later and it went to her voice mail. She never called me back. I finally called her back about 8 hours later, and all I wanted was help with wording for one sentence. I didn't want her opinion, I just wanted help, and she just didn't want to give it. So I finally just got off the phone with her so I could finish up the HR review (which is done). I understand what she was questioning, but she always just questions what I'm doing, almost as if I'm lying. And that's not the case. We've worked in different settings, and she doesn't realize that our work functions will differ. So when I say I just want help with one thing, just give me that. I don't ask her for much because I never get it, and this just reinforces it even more. I need to start studying again for the SPHR exam, which I know I'll get nothing from her on. She offered to pay for some of the study material, but I'll never see that. So that's annoying. I won't do that again. 2 more weeks until I'm on vacation. This will be a busy week on a social level - dinner with Debbie on Monday, baseball game on Tuesday, lunch with Tony M on Wednesday, lunch with Paul on Thursday, and the Squeeze concer that night, then lunch with Brenda on Friday. And in there, I still need to get my workouts in!